I still remember the moment when I was missing how's the 'butterfly feeling' feels like. Now I'm blessed that I have a chance to feel that feeling again after quite long time. How couldn't I? When a man that I was crushed on, now I can even call him mine. It's really what I call a dream comes true.. Once again, I'm blessed.
A lot of unexpected things happened for these past four months, since the day I met you again. I feel like I'm helping you out from your zone. Not a comfort one tho, but it's a zone where you spent most of the times for these past five years. 

The moment I know you more on each days. Every things that you and I've told one another, just to make sure that we won't hide anything, just trying to be open to one another, without any specific purpose before. We just feel comfortable just the way who we are. Until we found out and realized that there's something beautiful between us.

We might have different way of thinking. But when we have similarity in some little things like; when we accidentally wear same clothes, when we thought about the same thing, when we want to eat same food or watch same movie, etc. that's the right time for us to appreciate more. Because life will always be beautiful whenever we always be grateful about everything that happened.

You might be the only one man whom I always put your name on my prays. I believe if we put Allah first, we don't have to worry because everything will be alright and Allah knows more about the future. Once again, I'm blessed.
Until the day I found out about your kind and sincere intention towards me. For the honest intention that you've said, for the commitment that we've made, for the dreams that we want to chase, for the love that we've waited for..

When we still sat together in your car at midnight. I was closing my eyes and you started to talk about it. He hold my hand and make sure that I haven't sleep yet. Everything started from your question, "What's your life plans for the next one or two years?" I simply answer, "I have to finished my college first, build my own clothing line business, and think about getting married when I meet my fate. Why?" "If I want to ask you for a serious relationship, what do you think?" I answered his question still in the same position and closing my eyes. Then when his last question out from his lips, I still closed my eyes and I feel the warm and peaceful feeling. The feeling that I want to keep for a long time.. And the talk still going on 'til I open my eyes and looked into his eyes deeply. The best thing I've ever seen when I woke up.

We continued the talk 'til around an hour later. We sure made a commitment. I asked him, "have you figured out my weaknesses?" "I haven't found one up until now." "Ok then I want to warn you that there will be the time you'd figure it out, so be ready for it. I'm not trying to scare you.." But we know that one of the reason a relationship would be lasted long is because we have to accept our partner's plus and minus, rite?

That quiet yet beautiful night just passed. It was already past 12 AM. And we decided to have this serious relationship started from that day, August 16th. I love him since the day he chat me, but I had no reason to own him, all I did was keep it by myself. Now I love him more, not because I own him now but because he feels the same way as I do, he completes me.

And one of the most beautiful thing that he said that night was, "I'm sorry, I've made you wait.." Don't worry dear, you're the one that worth to wait for tho.

Let's talk about us now, not only me nor you, this is us. The unexpected meeting two years ago brought us here. From someone whom I only know to someone whom I crushed on to someone whom I can call mine.

Let's walk the journey together, side by side, through thick and thin, through our pray and also for our commitment.






I love to write things that happened in my life for these past few months.. Inspired by a short story kind of novel and I get better whenever I write the things out. And maybe it's going to be fun to read it in some months later. Looking forward to feel the excitement when I read it. Because I'm not a diary person when I was kid. Hahah.

I was wearing a kind of pajamas outfit back to the last Friday. Going out with my photographer friend and thank you for the good shots even tho my face really looked so pale and sleepy, as always. Hahah.




Let me say EID MUBARAK 1438H to all Muslim all around the world! May Allah let us be in the next Ramadhan, insya Allah, Amin..

Berhubung lagi ga banyak kegiatan di luar rumah selama bulan Ramadhan lalu, so I chose to stayed at home almost every day. Dan kebetulan di saat free, Clozette Indonesia mengundang aku dan beberapa Clozetters lainnya untuk hadir di store launching sebuah brand makeup asal Australia, BYS.

BYS stands for Be YourSelf. Jujur aku baru pertama kali mendengar brand ini dan kebetulan mereka memang baru buka store pertamanya ini di Plaza Senayan. But I really love at the first sight with this brand! Kenapa? You know that I'm not into makeup, right? Dan BYS ini produk-produknya totally for basic or beginner, just like me. Setelah asik keliling-keliling storenya dan tester produk-produknya, I simply love it! Karena produk mereka tidak confusing bagi para beginner.

Aku dibantu banget sama store manager dan store keeper di sana, aku bener-bener tanya tentang brand ini dan beberapa produk yang aku terima, bahkan aku ditawarin untuk di-retouch and definitely I sais yes! Haha.

And luckily, Clozetters yang hadir mendapatkan 3 produk unggulan dari BYS; Pure Silk Serum Foundation, Velvet Lips Liquid Lipstick, and On The Go Palette. They are all definitely the basic of makeup. So berikut ini aku review sedikit mengenai produk-produknya..

Foundation yang bertekstur really light dan sangat mudah buat diaplikasikan! Sekarang foundation ini aku pake banget untuk makeup sehari-hari aku. Karena selama ini aku jarang banget pake base, so this really light foundation safes my day! Foundation ini menggunakan pipe jadi akan tetap higenis.

I've been using liquid lipstick for these past few years. Suka pakai liquid karena applicatornya gampang jadi ga bikin berantakan. Tentunya pasti cari yang final resultnya yang matte. Biasanya warna yang aku pake ga jauh-jauh dari nude, kemarin saat pilih-pilih warna lipstick juga matanya ga jauh-jauh dari tone yang nude. Hahah. Trus direkomendasiin warna rosewood ini. Sebenernya aku juga suka lipstick berwana dark, tapi sebelumnya pernah coba dan agak takut sendiri karena wajahku jadi terlihat galak, karena bibirku lumayan tipis ditambah berwarna dark, hahaha. Jadi lipsticknya cuma di simpan..
Tapi aku suka sama warna dark yang rosewood ini, aku ngerasa ini tuh percampuran dark-nude-reddish color!

Nah ini adalah produk yang aku suka banget. Selama ini agak males untuk beli eye shadow palette, karena jujur emang jarang banget pake eye shadow tapi selalu ketar-ketir kalo mau dateng ke event semi formal, hahah. Biasanya selalu beli eye shadow yang kecil yang cuma ada 3 warna. Nah pas tau ada on the go palette ini, ngerasa lucu banget karena eye shadow yang handy untuk dibawa kemana-mana dan warnanya lengkap!
BYS punya 3 jenis palette; Neutral, Smokey, Matte. Awalnya galau mau yang smokey atau matte, tapi karena lebih sering pakai warna-warna natural terutama coklat, so I chose this Matte On The Go Palette!

Kalau mascara ini aku beli, karena saat di-retouch aku dipakein mascara ini dan langsung suka (kebetulan mascara lagi habis hahah). Mascara ini aku pilih karena mempertebal bulu mata, berhubung tipis dan ga lentik, jadi aku pilih ini, Yeay!

Last but not least, walaupun BYS ini brand asal luar negeri, harganya sangat terjangkau! It's really affordable and worth to buy!

And not forget to snap my #OOTD all black as always. Wuff!



I'm surrounded by people who has same age as me and the things that happening now; bachelor exam, marriage, pregnancy, and newly mama. And where am I? None of them. I'm just enjoying my free time as a final semester student who's waiting for the mood to start writing the skripsi, lol. I'm not lazy. I'm just taking a rest from those tiresome years as a fashion student. If you had the same passion as me, you'd know how hard those times, right? But..enjoy!